Journal Day 14
Entry # 20 – December 5 2007
Today was a pretty crappy day…I caved again and smoked….Because I repeated the pattern of going out to a pub. I did see some great live music, and meet a potentially awesome business connection, so it hasn’t all been bad….but damn, time to reset that counter back to 0.
Days Sober 0
Days Stoned 1
Day 15 another Marijuana Relapse
Entry #21 – December 6 2007
Well, I had a little to smoke again today. I keep finding it and not saying “No”. In the grand scheme of things, this is still improvement. This weekend is going to be very tough because I usually wake and bake, then get stoned all day. I know I need to stop smoking weed, so I will be working hard toward this goal on the weekend – day by day.
Friday’s post will be much more detailed.
Day 8 – Marijuana Detox and Withdrawal
Entry #22 -March 25 2008*
*The date on this post is an update date, I think the original was Dec 6th –John
Another day without smoking pot. Today was a better day. I was extremely busy today, and did not experience any intense cannabis withdrawal symptoms. The anxiety and dread that I was feeling is definitely in recession. I know that I am only 8 days in, but I feel like the worst part of the psychological detox is past me. Now I will need to deal with sobriety on a daily basis. The physical detox will take up to 3 months for all of the fat-soluble thc to be free from my system. Only after 3 months will I consider myself ‘clean’ from weed. Clean is not the same thing as recovered!
Sleep was also better last night – I got 7 hours and only woke up once. When smoking weed, I seemed to wake up a lot more during the night. Sometimes I would even awake, smoke a roach, then head straight back to bed. It appears that marijuana makes sleep come easy, but the quality of sleep is worse than a sober sleep would be. Anyone find the same thing happening to them.
Bucking Faked requested the ability to blog on their progress. I will be configuring and opening a Marijuana Addiction Support Forum this weekend. I don’t know if it will be on this site, or on another domain…I still need to work out the logistics.
Mood Swings and Withdrawal from Marijuana
Entry #23 – December 7 2007
Thanks to all of you who have been posting comments to update me with their progress or keep me on track. Today was a great day, being that it is Friday and I have the weekend in front of me. My entire goal of Friday night is preparing for the weekend and not smoking weed at all. The weekends are usually when I smoke a tonne of weed so it will take a lot of will power and distraction to keep sober over the next 2 days. I also need to make sure I don’t substitute with alcohol – I really don’t want to trade marijuana addiction for alcoholism!
I have some withdrawal mood swings over the last 3 or 4 days. Not exactly depressed, but angry and cynical. I remember a quote “Depression is merely anger without enthusiasm”, so I am getting somewhere I am feeling good at the moment and looking forward to accomplishing a lot this weekend.
But hey, 1 day at a time. I have been researching new hobbies and will be putting some time into the website this weekend. I think I am going to wait a little longer before I do a major overhaul on the layout, categories, and navigation.
Marijuana Sobriety for a day.
Entry #24 – December 8 2007
I was sober today! Woohoo. It took a lot of work and I had to keep busy all day, but I managed to do it. The relaxation techniques really came in handy. The Sun Salutation is great way to start they day. I have also been working on breathing deeply throughout the day. If I ever struggle to take a deep relaxed slow breath, I immediately do the Deep Breathing reset, and am back in no time. I think relaxation is one of the keys to stop smoking weed.
My sleeping patterns and eating patterns are horrible, I can’t get to bed early, and I want to sleep all day. I believe that there are 2 keys here: Diet and Exercise.
My diet is really shitty. I cook for myself once or twice a week and eat junk the rest of the time, most of the exercise I do is walking too or from my vehicle to the fast food restaurant or 7-11. This was OK when I was baked constantly, but really needs to change now. I have a lot of time, so learning to cook is a great skill to develop in the mean time. Ironically, I am not overweight. I think this is because some days I only eat one meal.
I am also in poor physical shape. My natural build and body type gives me a great frame for sports and physical activities, but my cardiovascular ability has been cut in half by the amount of weed I smoked. My diet and lack of exercise made me again about 20 lbs in the last 2 years. I would like to keep the weight and lose the fat!